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Qualifying… or Not, as the case may be…

Tonight was my classes qualifying ceremony. Hannah and I were able to secure tickets courtesy of some behind the scenes wrangling. It was a bittersweet experience, to say the least.

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It seems so long ago, yet also hardly yesterday that our class started out on day 1 of medschool. The anticipation of a new adventure; a timetable of lectures, laboratories, and workshops; dissecting a human body for the first time; and a world where the opportunities were endless and the future seemed limitless. All of a sudden, it all culminated in this evening.

Licensed medical practitioners….

Everyone but me….

I was SO happy to see everyone walk up the stage, it has been a monumental journey to get to this place. But at the same time I was battling my own emotions of loss.

Knowing that it could have been me up there;

Knowing that it should have been me up there;

… and feeling so completely screwed over by the last year of my life. Medicine was my dream. Medicine still IS my dream, my calling, what I still believe God wants me to do. I found it incredibly hard to sit through the ceremony and keep my eyes dry. There were a number of times where tears welled up and I had to blink them away, pretending I’m tougher than that.

Something about this ceremony really reinforced what has been taken away from me this year, not just health, not just parts of my life, but my future, my dreams, my hopes. It sorta all hit home.

But, as God as my witness, I WILL be standing up there next year with the class behind me. It will be by God’s grace alone that I might be able to fulfill this small part of the dream He has given me.

I look forward to that more than anything.

The class tonight put together a giant card for me with their signatures on it, this meant a lot to me. I was also given the class of 09 graduation tie (seen in the photo above). I’m going to wear it in the hospital next year… because in my mind, they will always be my class.

Congratulation everyone. We finally got there!

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  1. urbannanna
    November 16, 2009 at 11:14 pm

    i was blinking back more of the same jared reading your post. everyone wants you to get there too. you deserve it just as much if not more than most. bless you my new friend

  2. Debbie
    November 20, 2010 at 4:07 pm

    I second that, you keep it in your sights, one day at a time……thats all we all really have too…..you’ve conquered amazing odds so far by the Grace of God, you can do it again, to achieve the next milestone!! Be blessed!!! A Big congrats on reaching this milestone!!!

  1. November 19, 2010 at 4:17 pm

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