This blog was originally put together over a year ago now, and when I chose the layout of it, it was a case of picking the best of an average bunch of options. WordPress have subsequently and progressively added a few more over the last year, so I decided to look at changing it. Of course, if I hosted this blog on my own domain, then I there is a bigger selection available, however, I kind of like the low maintenance option of just letting WordPress look after it for me.
I’m also thinking of changing the name. The Boredom Blog is probably a lot less accurate these days now that I’m back doing medicine. Thankfully, boredom is not the greatest challenge of my day to day existence anymore. I was thinking of running with “Chemo and Caffeine”, a reflection of the two drugs with the greatest influence in my life. The suggestion was made by Josie Campbell, so she must take the credit for it. But if you can come up with something different, I’m open to suggestions!
So, this leads me to two things: First, what do you think? is this better, worse, or no different?
And Secondly, Who are you?? Many people come vist my blog and I’d like to know who the regulars are! 🙂 I get comments from a few people, but I know there a many more that pass by silently. Feel free just to stick in a comment letting me know who you are. Feedback helps the soul, and it helps to know if people actually enjoy what they are reading or not.
When I started this blog, it was initially meant to keep people up to date with how I am going with my chemotherapy whilst I was out of action for the year. The original intention still remains, however, the expectations that I started with have changed. Even though my odds of survival were never great (40% at 5 years), there was somehow at the back of my mind the notion that I would beat those odds. However, as statistics do in their strange way, they have proven that there is a basis for such figures as I am more or less relegated to the 60% non-surviving category.
Now, as I enter a new phase of the journey with cancer, this blog will fulfill two purposes: the original one to keep people up to date with how I am doing, and a second one, to provide some kind of creative outlet that documents my journey that maybe months long, or a few years short. I’m not sure what form this outlet will take, it’ll likely be musings, thoughts, and experiences along the path to my eventual demise.
For those that know me, I’ve never been one to be particularly private about stuff, and I see no reason to be so now. From what I can tell, most people seem grateful that I can share my experience with them. Some people will no doubt not want to hear about it, which is fine, whether you chose to read this blog or not is up to you. In my experience though, those that embrace the hard things in life are the ones who flourish the most, including the hard things in other peoples life. I don’t write this blog for sympathy, or to garnish attention, but to hopefully provide insight into a dying mind and soul, and to allow those who want to journey with me through this to be able to do so.
Finally, my faith, which is integral to my identity and purpose, has never really featured here much. This is likely to change. Knowing about your death is something that helps you re-prioritise things. My faith always has been, and always will be a priority in my life, but I’m chosing to engage with it on a more public level because it is issues of life and death that raise these kinds of topics to the surface for discussion.
Thanks for Listening.
It is very hard to explain how difficult it is to type right now, the easiest way would be for me to not correct the typos I make as I write this, but I’m not kidding when I say that it would be unreadable. My fingers and hands are constantly cramping up, and the nausea is constantly in the back of my throat. I think I have finally reached the business end of chemotherapy. Its much worse on round 3….. and there are 5 more rounds to go.
Anywho… as per the title of this post, you should check out a friend of mine who has featured me on his blog. Al is doing a photo project at the moment which involves a photo diary of sorts, 1 a day for a year, and today he featured me. I’d recommend seeing his blog which you can find HERE…. You can also support him if you like his photos and buy some as well :-).
P.s. hard to say how well I will do with keeping up with posts over the next few days, so I’ll apologise in advance if don’t do very well.
I’m currently sitting in my armchair with round three of chemo and it’s associated toxic chemicals coursing through my veins. Currently I’m feeling pretty good, but anticipate feeling the opposite of that in a few hours time, and then again for the next week.
Todays chemo is being given via a vein in my left hand rather than through the portacath I no longer have. Supposedly it was supposed to make my arm hurt quite a bit as it goes in, but so far so good. I’m currently 45 min into a 2 hour infusion.
So, I’ll leave you with a photo of my good looking self. 🙂
I’m pretty sure I’m way off the graph to the right somewhere. 🙂
HT: Nigel Cottle
So, in keeping with the Gen Y tradition, i thought i would start a blog. This is largely in part due to two reason, the first, being a good way to kill the awful amount of time on my hands that I have had lately, and will continue to have for at least the next 6 months, and secondly, its a good way for people to keep up to date with my where i am at with my cancer treatment etc. I am routinely plagued with the same questions by different people over and over again. I certainly don’t mind answering these questions, but in order to help avoid the monotonous repetition of my voice, hopefully most questions will be answered before they are asked! 🙂
This is clearly my first post, and as such if you are reading this with only one post, its pretty boring!!! but time is my friend, and hopefully the value of this will grow over time as more and more is added. I would strongly encourage people to subscribe to the RSS feed of this, so that updates are automatically delivered to your desktop without having to actually come to the web page routinely. 🙂